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My Darkest Days:

      Have you ever thought about situations in your head and knew what you'd do if it ever happened? Well I have and it wasn't what i expected and I live with it everyday. The day it all started... On July 25th, 2018 I was hanging out with a friend and was texting Aleiyah she needed to get out of that terrible situation. I left and went and picked her up. On July 26th, we were just about to leave my house when we heard banging on the doors, windows etc, so I went to go look and see who it was. It ended up being Jessica Grant (Armour) her birth giver and Shane Armour her birth givers now husband. I didn't want to deal with it so I had called the cops.  They showed up and of course stated Aleiyah should go over and talk it out. So around Noon that day Aleiyah and I had went out to eat and she said she was just gonna go talk for a little then will text me when to pick her up... While sitting there eating my stomach was not feeling right. My adrenaline was way up there....

Part 1 of My Darkest Days:

                It all started back in January of 2018. One night I had went to go hangout with my now frenemy Nino at the Fire Department he volunteered with. He was hanging out with his friend whom is now my wife Aleiyah. Everything was going well and we were all hanging out etc all the time with no care in the world, just enjoying life, on our days off and after work. One night, my wife and I had went over to hangout at the Fire House after getting food an they wanted to play manhunt so we did. It was now my turn to go look for everyone, while the others had been out already we paged them over the intercom and nothing. I went to go look for them and found them both in a dark hidden space that goes behind the staircase. Now mind you Nino who was my so called Friend had dated Aleiyah, MY WIFE prior to getting together. Now imagine finding them like I did and being an OVERTHINKER! In my mind, I wanted to beat the s**t out of him but I had just kep...

Welcome to My Darkest Days. Introduction

           Welcome to My Darkest Days. My name is Jacob and I am from Rotterdam NY. My blog will be about mental health and how I came to realize how important it is and how to understand it. Back in the beginning of 2018 my life was perfect, I didn't have anxiety, panic attacks etc. After going through what I've been through, I finally understood what others have been going through. The past few years I've had bad panic attacks, anxiety, anger, etc I was lost and didn't know what to do. I have never been the type to go and talk to someone about what I was going through. I was even at a point where I had lost hope and faith, stopped believing in God etc. I was fighting my demons physically and mentally. I've decided to make this blog to not only help people connect with similar situations/ stories but to also understand that no matter what you're going through that there are ways to come out of situations like mine and others and to never give up. If anyone...